If I Fall by Anna Cruise
Meg Calloway is at the edge.
Reeling from her parent's sudden divorce, fifteen-year-old Meg has never felt more alone. Her father is about to marry a woman she can't stand and her mother's only companion is an endless supply of alcohol. When Aidan Westwood, an older boy at school, shows interests in her, she grabs on and doesn't let go, thinking he's exactly what she needs to held stem her loneliness and despair. She quickly learns that Aidan lives a darker, more dangerous life than she does, and the more isolated she feels from her family, the more willing she is to step into Aidan's world.
As Meg drifts further from her friends, she tries to find comfort with a boy who is opening her eyes up to new things, none of them good. Will she listens to those around her who are warning her that she's headed down a path of self-destruction?
Or will she fall too far ... too fast ... too deep?
I received this from the author in a giveaway on her blog.
If I Fall is a very mature new-adult fiction. This book is about finding yourself before you lose yourself completely. Anna Cruise did a wonderful job of creating the world that Meg lives in. She doesn't go too far into description, but she doesn't do too little either.
Meg Calloway, fifteen-year-old, is suffering from her parents' sudden divorce that left her mother drinking too much. I know how hard it is for Meg to just live normally even though her dad had moved out with his new "model-like" wife, and now he's planning on selling the house Meg lives in because he can't pay for two houses. I know it is hard because of personal reasons, but I can feel how Meg feels underneath all of the anger that she wants to let out.
So now, her father's gone, her mother is heading down the path of an alcoholic, and Meg is ... losing herself. So then enters Aidan Westwood. He's a surfer, druggy, and drinks a lot. Meg doesn't realize that she's losing herself, so she just wants to have some fun to replace that sadness in her. Now, you can guess what happens next, Meg is headed down the path of self-destruction.
This book is very mature, it tells the story of a girl who doesn't know that she's losing herself until she finally has. Meg reaches out for help, only to grab on to a guy she barely knows who is willing to give everything to her in an unhealthy way.
This is actually the first mature book I've ever read and it was ... not what I was expecting. What I was expecting was to read a light-weight story about a girl and her life, but I didn't expect to read such an emotional and amazing book like this.
Sometimes, I wanted to be angry along with Meg, sometimes I just wanted to be frustrated against her for being so stupid and blind. But I guess that's what kept me reading.
I give 4 stars to this book because I thought it was too mature for my age, I am not really comfortable of reading such an emotional book like this, so that was why I give this a 4. But overall, I loved it. I loved every single detail that Anna described and the emotions that Anna created.
This was just ... unexpected.
About the Author:
Anna Cruise has been writing and drooling over boys since middle school. Lots of years has past but some things never change...
IT WAS YOU was her debut novel. She is currently at work with two Young Adults novels and two additional New Adult titles (including Tana's story!)